My Long Distance Friendship #1

I began to think that the view about that girl was only an imagination. Then, I continued my life as usual. But, I always interest to have friend from another country. Friend who sincerely wants to be my friend. I tried to find a friend like that on social media, but it wasn't easy, I found some girls who didn't interest to be a friend with a girl (me), I don't know exactly why? Maybe boy is more interesting or, I don't know.

But at one time, I found a girl, I forgot where she was from (country),and I thought she interested to be my friend, and she was such a cool friend. But then I knew if she was a lesbian. I was so afraid. I told her that I am normal, but she wanted to make me same as her, lesbian. I blocked her. Yes, I had to block her exactly. So many fake people on internet, they pretend to be good, and hide their another face at the back. So, I have to be careful, and you too guys.

I tried to find my sincere friend on instagram, there are some Instagrams that facilitate us to find penpal. I hoped that I could find the sincere one. There were some people who promoted their selves for example "Hi, I'm Anna, 12 y.o. from Canada, and I'm looking for penpal all around the world, DM me you interest." At that time, I didn't know yet what is DM? Hahaha😂 so, I just left comment there, like "Hi, I am Vita from Indonesia." After that, I forgot if I've left comment there, hahaha😂. 

Maybe few weeks after I left comment there, I realized that someone has sent message to my Instagram. I read it so late.

"Esselamualeykum Vita😊 i found you from "findpenpals" instagram account. Are you still looking for a penfriend?😊

I haven't got a photo on there, don't worry, I'm 19 years old girl. I'm Muslim🌸❤

I'm Beyza🐰🌸"

Then I replied

"Wa'alaikumsalam Beyza.. ^_^ I am sorry, I already read your message. Yes, I am still looking for penfriend ^_^ would you be my penfriend?"

Wowwww.. Someone texted me, a girl from Turkey, but she didn't have any photo on her profile picture, and her Instagram was private (locked). I couldn't see anything, she didn't accept me to follow her Instagram account. Why ?

To be continued..

My Long Distance Friendship #prologue

One day (the end of 2015), in the living room of my house, I was talking about Turkey scholarship with my mother. But suddenly, I saw the back of a girl, and her long hair with different hair color (it is different with Indonesian hair color). She was in a place, I didn't know exactly where it was, but my hunch said that it was a place in Turkey. I saw her with my own eyes, but those eyes were different. Because in the reality, I was in the living room with my mother, but at the same time I saw her in a place (outdoor). OK, maybe that was just my feeling.

I hoped that I can study in Turkey, and have a Turkish best friend, a girl who loves me like she loves her own sister, and so do I. I prayed for that in my Salah. Because I was afraid if I should live far away from my family in long time, although it is still in the same world globe.

So, I guessed that the view about the girl I've seen was the view about my future best friend. Would I get the Turkey scholarship? But actually, I wasn't 100% sure about getting that scholarship. I felt 50% wanted to get that scholarship, and 50% afraid of living far away from my family. One of my best friend here, in Indonesia, dreamed about me, she told me that she saw me got the Ticket to Turkey, and I thought that I would truly get that scholarship then fly to Turkey.

Finally, unfortunately, it was just a dream. I couldn't get that scholarship. Actually I feel so bad for telling about my failure. But people said that failure is the delayed success, so I'll be success in future insha Allah. I wish it won't be delayed for so long 😂. After that, I began to think that the view about that girl was only an imagination 😔

(That was my story in the end of 2015-2016. But, you know what ! Now I know the girl that I've seen ! She is real ! She truly came into my life !)

To be continued..

I Need You

Salah satu hal tergalau menurutku adalah ketika aku nggak bisa sholat, karena sedang menstruasi tentunya. Apa lagi kalau di saat seperti itu malah datang permasalahan yang sungguh mengguncang hati ini #lebay

Tapi sungguh ! Ndak kuat aku tanpa Allah #sedih . Bagiku Allah adalah tempat mengadukan segala suka dan duka, dan ketika sholat itu aku bisa tenang. Bayangin deh, awalnya kena air wudhu, uuuuhhh #segar Abis itu siap-siap deh untuk sholat, dan #moment paling #wow itu ketika sujud.

Katanya pas lagi sujud itu adalah salah satu saat kita paling deket sama Allah, uuuhhh #romantis Jadi pengen cepet-cepet selesai menstruasi. Tapi.. Sebetulnya saat menstruasi itu kita masih bisa berzikir mengingat Allah loh.. Tapi tetep aja #kangen sholat.

Ya ampun, dibikin kangen gini sama Allah. Pokoknya Dia itu #super banget. Dia siapa? Allah lah tentunya #senyum Aku sungguh nggak bisa bayangin hidup tanpa Dia.. Nggak mau.. #nangis Pokoknya harus ada Allah, selalu, titik.

Aku rasa yang rasain hal ini bukan cuma aku. Tapi kamu-kamu yang di sana juga. Yu mari kita beromantis ria sama Allah ^_^ uuuuhhh so #sweet